Time as white sound
Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Alright. For those of you who are disorientated with the ins and outs of Matt J Fam lately, you haven't missed much. Just a hell of an anxiety roller coaster which hasn't quite ended yet, but I will say that things have a relatively good chance of turning out fine.

Scorpio's intuition.
That and my lovely flat feet which helped me in ways I never thought they could before.
No. Stop thinking dirty if any of you warped minds are doing so- it is not anything to do with that.

Other than that, prospects seem promising. Think mist rising ala Dickens' "Great Expectations". Hope and the unknown.
These two must go hand in hand.

Thank you family, friends, loved ones and Cowboy for all the love, support and prayers these past few days. I really needed it (and still do for tomorrow!).

I love you Mom, Amadea and Cowboy.
You three were the superheros of the day. No wait, you're always my superheros :)

9:55 PM

Monday, March 23, 2009

Would any of you say that high trauma is almost the same as emotional numbness?
It's pseudo-serenity.

Zen like the blacks and whites swirling together.
A blot of ink on paper white.
Ribbing through, it is a pebble in a pond.

I am a Lily, mind splitting like its petals

8:10 PM

Friday, March 20, 2009

Hello world. I am content because I'm allowed to return home each evening for the next one and three-quarter years. That will be the good news of the day.

That and the classification of the wound on my face as an abrasion by my dermatologist.
Only an abrasion. Thank God.

Yeeks, on another note, I haven't written a poem in ages.
Inspiration is like the temperamental weather.

In other words, to put it colloquially, it is a menstruating bitch.
Woof woof.

9:21 PM

Aloes and vitamin e oils.

11:30 AM

Sunday, March 15, 2009

I find the churning of personal statements and essays about one's self made for the sake of university application mildly narcissistic.

It is a necessary evil though- to be a pompous I'm-better-than-any-other-applicant-because...

I mean, would we all rather be pompous sounding for once, or be deprived of a place in the university of our liking?

Necessary evils, people. These cannot be avoided.

5:04 PM

Saturday, March 14, 2009

Am I the only fool who's excited about the opening of the Circle Line?? Or just one section of it that is. I can finally visit Yixin and Martin at Lorong Chuan without having to go through all those troublesome interchanges!

Well to begin with, I haven't even been to their places in a long while. The tedious travelling was what repelled me from the very idea anyway.

Alright so... I guess I'll be going to NUS open house later?
Anybody coming along as well?

9:50 AM

Friday, March 13, 2009

Cabaret sluts and the incessant need to develop an independent voice.

Clothes. Music. Art. Theatre.
Wow, I'm getting so giddy.

And not forgetting vanity. Ah yes.

Here's a lil 'I love you' to all my friends and loved ones out there!

9:27 AM

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

Versace underwear.
Body shop body butter.
Cool tees.
Some Cds and a DS game.

Choices choices choices...

10:00 PM